I took "The Daily Suicide" off of the title, because my pops walked by the screen yesterday and asked me... "You not still feelin like that are you?"... I replied, "Nah Pop, I cant leave yall like that. Thats just my blog"... Then we sat down and took shots of gin. I love my Pops. But still, lemme explain...
I dont know if I have told anyone about this ever. But still... Back in like the 8th grade, I had this english teacher, Mr. Morgano(best english teacher ever). He took my class to NYC for FREE. But beyond that, he made us keep a journal. My first signs of writing. And I remember, I was goin through a rough patch like usual it seems. My uncle died. My aunt died. And I was still thinkin about my grandpa being gone. I forget the other shit that was going on exactly. But still... I contiplated suicide. I actually was forced to see a counselor about it because my teacher read it in my journal and thought I was going to kill myself.
I actually did cut myself tho lol. But my punk ass didnt cut deep enough. Scar is still there. Its kinda my reminder that, no matter what happens... It still doesnt beat death. I stay smiling. I dont hold grudges. Because... I could be dead. Then who would yall be mad at constantly!? lol... Still, see... The best comedy comes from tragedy. I love that saying. Cant wait for that tattoo. Thats within the next months. Trust. That is one of my favorite sayings and I cant remember where I heard it first. I didnt come up with it. But I loveeeeeeee it. Prolly the only nigga you know with it tatted tho. Whatever... My life is a comical tragedy. Big ass train wreck, where nobody gets killed, just hurt like a muhfucka. And then later on, down the line, tellin their grandkids... They say "man, I was in a trainwreck a long time ago and everybody survived. And ever since that day, I have lived life differently."... Yeah... THATS MY LIFE! lol
Yo... So I started listenin to "Lost" by Gorilla Zoe again lol. I love this song. Damn I wish I could make music. My boo can sing, but I cant get her to sing to me. Ima get her tho lol. Yall wont know about it tho, cuz thats goin to be between us. But Ima get her...
Say it with me now...
blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh went the lion...
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why does everyone try to cut themselves? there are much easier ways to die. Also, I've seen that tattoo before. many times. This may be one of those few times when I'm like "damn, hate to crush ya spirit" but I know you're still gonna get it so who cares.
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