i love it...

First off, I got two shout outs last night on my boo, Sika's radio show lol. Im mad proud lol. Plus I love the show mama. Much love to you and Ru. G as well.

Besides the working out, I have been into so much. But didnt feel it was right to broadcast it... Well Ive neva been one to always keep good things to myself, so I give to the world. Let 'em go and let the next show improve. Im good tho... Mighty fine where Im at. Im bout to celebrate my 1 year anniversary at the warehouse on March 8th, then my 3 year anniversary on April 6 with Wegmans as a whole. In an economy where muhfuckas is gettin fired and laid off, I feel good. Im bout to be level 3 in a few months, so thats another raise ontop of the one I got last month. Job security... Wegmans is opening up 3 more stores this year. So thats more work for us lol. Yes... Overtime. Moneyyyyyyyyyy.

So Im caught up in The Crazy L Trio as I like to call it(Love, Like, Lust)... Love is far from tho... So really Im just caught up in a bunch of lust and like. Its no secret. I love women. And I love sex. Both recipes for disaster. I gotta stop fuckin girls that know each other. This is getting old lol. Drizzy said it best... "And promotors try to get me out to they clubs and say I have fun/But I cant imagine how/Cuz I jus see my ex girl, standin wit my next girl, standin wit the girl that Im fuckin right now..." That very thing has occured, just not in a club lol. The promotor is obviously one of the females, encouraging me to come to a party with her. And I decline, because I know who will be there and I know what we did last summer lol. Or possibly, still are doing. I cant have fun in that type of environment. Not at all. It reminds me of "Def Jam's : How To Be A Player" with Bill Bellemy lol. I am far from being anywhere near his calibur of player tho. I dont even like to call myself a player. It seems so juvenile.

Im not juvenile, I just havent found a women who makes me not think of other women. Its like this... My last two girlfriends, have 2 things in common... Me lol and they both made me completely forget other females existed... For the majority of our relationship. But eventually, they got all comfy as did I, and unfortunately I grew bored. No more sparks. And since I cant bring myself to break up with anybody, I jus started doin dumb shit to make her break up wit me... Wait, that is juvenile. Yuck. My bad. But still... One man's trash, is another man's treasure. Im not sayin that any of the women I have encountered are trash EXCEPT ONE. BIGGEST REGRET EVER. But its mum for that. Anyway, Im just happy that they all have new significant others. Thats cool. I got a lil somethin somethin as well. She keeps me excited for the most part, and I fiend to hear her voice. Im upset she has to work for Vday, which is why I dont have a date. I told her I was going to find another dinner date, cuz I really just want to go out. And she was cool with that. But whateva... The only reason I havent made it official is because I still cant see myself with her 10 years from now, honestly. Hopefully one day I will. I always say, I want a marathon not a sprint. I can get a girl when I want. But I want a wife. And if they cant understand that... They aint the one. And when I look over everything that Ive done... All I want is THE one. Not just SOMEone. Fuck that...

"Patience is a virtue" said Sama Ry, who was then trumped by "blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh" went the lion...